“What’s happening?” is something I have been asking myself over the last month or so.
You may, (or may not !) have noticed that I haven’t been involved in any thing in WordPress World lately. I haven’t posted anything for a while, and I haven’t been visiting blogging friends either. And I have been asking myself why.
It’s not just blogging. It is a while since I have been inspired to do anything creative, and haven’t done much in my Etsy shop ~ certainly not creating and adding drawings to the shop. There has been one exception to my creativity, which I will tell you about at a later date.
So what has been happening? I am not sure that I know.
I could blame the cold weather. My studio is chilly and the lounge room is toasty warm. I moved my painting gear into the lounge but still haven’t settled to paint. In fact the table has added to my sense of annoyance by cluttering up the space. Today I bought a laptop and I am learning that it is easier to write a blog post on it than the iPad ~ and warmer than the big computer in the studio! The weather is not the issue.
I could blame working full time for two weeks, but that’s only an excuse, not a valid reason.
Really it has been all in my head. For some reason I haven’t been doing the things that I love, the things that bring me pleasure. I just haven’t wanted to do them. Maybe I have been having a holiday. I think it is bound up with not being sure where my art is going. Thoughts about Etsy, exhibitions and textiles. And not coming up with any thing clear. I love to create but feel that each piece needs to be a finished work. It is not enough to have the work pile up a drawer, I need it to be sold/given away/exhibited. That attitude makes it difficult to just play.
There are all sorts of things swirling beneath the surface of my consciousness. I am feeling frustrated at the moment, wanting to force out a decision. But I know that that doesn’t work for me. I need to let my mind work away on it, without a lot of conscious thought. Past experience has told me that if I give myself time something will be resolved.
Occasionally thoughts will hit me, thoughts that are obvious and true, but ones I haven’t thought before. For example, as I was mulling things over today I knew that for the next month I just had to play, to relax in my art and just have fun, experiment. No pressure for final results. That also means that I have to be very conscious about making the time for art. Another issue has been how I fritter time away. So fewer distractions and more blocks of time.
So, what’s happening? Who knows, certainly not me! But maybe I will know at some stage. At least I am back home now, back in WordPress World!